it might just all be a facade

Friday, September 26, 2008;

♥ 9/26/2008 10:05:00 PM

When the night falls on you
&you dont know what to do
Let me come along
So even if you're wrong
I'll stand by you>>

&the accident which got the whole function room smoky.

Smokyyyy.

Y'all were awesome. :D
I know when y'all ask me out of outings/gatherings, i can't make it almost 99.99999 out of that 100 times. But ahh, y'all were still as crazy, just like the first day i'd known y'all. :D
It's those times, i miss. It's these friendships, i miss. (:

I kind of like it when all of us sat down together &have lunch. (:

It's nice. &nice.

GP Mock Exam was a major disaster today.
-dig a hole &burry my head.
D: It's that bad.

Friends, i let them into a vulnerable part of me. Yet they all left. ): I'm just trying to pretend that everything's fine, when everything's not. Pretending that everything's going the way i planned, when the actual thing is the opposite. But it's okay.
Afterall, i like the front people view wenfang as. I like it when people call me 'strong'.
This means that they don't know me enough, but i'm alright with that.
Besides, i'm getting used to the feeling of being surrounded by friends and people, yet feeling really lonely deep down inside.

I hope this mess is like books.
So i can pack them &set the nicely on shelves all over again.

Huili's coffee works wonder. (:
But it's wearing off alr, which is just in time.
I can go to bed now. (:
G'nights.

Labels: friendships that seems out of grasp, nostalgic (still)

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Friday, September 19, 2008;

♥ 9/19/2008 10:12:00 PM

Raindrops are falling on my head>>

I really wonder why things all became this way? ):
No, don't ever ever tell me this is how things will end for all of us.
I dont want lah! D: D: D:

Frankly speaking, things are damn shit now. ):
Everything started accumulating inside of me. I wish i could puke them all out, at a go.
Hard.
Cos there isn't one who understand the mess that i'm stuck in.
Screwed up. D:

Time's running out, so is life.
Let's go, mate.

Labels: shit do happen

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Saturday, September 13, 2008;

♥ 9/13/2008 10:17:00 PM

Even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along>>

Life's in the pits.
I ponder twice as hard now, at every step i'm about to take.
I start doing reflections more, &i start questioning myself questions which no one is able to answer.
&those miserable prelims results ain't helping much. ):
I'm such a knucklehead. D:
I'm just glad friends around me are there, for snatching my oxygen. (:

Binbin passed me the cd of china photos from huang laoshi.
I miss my hostel roommates! :D I miss those gossips/complaints/mere chatting sessions til unearthly hours after midnight. I miss shouting to the guys, across the buildings. I miss those dirt cheap bargains you can get from the streets. I miss the finally hot bath sessions over at teachers' hostel. I miss the time when the girls &jon walked back from the teachers' hostel, we made a wrong turn &have dogs barking at us. I miss bao laoshi. :D I miss those history lessons, which all of us slammed our head right down to the table. I miss only having to survive on afew bottles of water a day. I miss stocking up food at the neaby supermarket. I miss the mad rush for hot water to bathe. (:
I miss the kind of freedom you get when you're overseas with your friends. It makes you feel like you're not longer a kid. You're able to take care of yourself, yet have fun with everyone else around you too. :D

Oh yeah, it's nice now that most of us finally decided to go for prom. (:
It's disappointing that Fairfield Table isn't able to form. Well, in either ways i'm still going with my class.
Zhihao promised to give me a ride to Shang. He's gonna rent a van or a bus. :D
You go, boy!

I've been eating like a monster recently. D:
Like on thurs, when i had pizza hut with bcme hl bp. I still feel hungry after my meal. ):
Like just now, i had Tori Q set meal with hl &bp. I still feel hungry, so i had 3jellyfish sushi &a tuna sushi. &i was still feeling hungry!
Worms inside of me, i reckon.
Big fat ugly enormous ones. I'll starve them one day, i swear. ):

G'nights!

Labels: hungry, miss china trip, prom

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Friday, September 05, 2008;

♥ 9/05/2008 09:51:00 PM

Firefly come back to me
Make the night as bright as gay>>

Sept holidays are ending, as quickly &quietly like it came.
Honestly, where have all my excitement gone to?
I used to be all hyped up &cheerful when any holidays are approaching. :D I'll punched my fist into the air (not literally), &screamed YAYE silently, when the end of school bell rings on the last day of school.
I'll be ultra motivated &finish up all my assignments &revision within the first 2days. (Hardcore, right? :D) Then start on my 'Holiday Activities' from day 3 onwards. Out with friends, blah &blah.
Hokay, that's Primary School stuff, i know.

As we grow older, we tend to gain alot of things.
Lose alot of other things as well.
We've outgrown simple excitement &joy like being hyped up over holidays, &being cheery all over it.
Ahh, something sad eh? ):
How i wish we could go back to the time where our only troubles are when will the next candy come &when will the next cartoon be screened on tv. (:

Idk what's wrong with all of us. ):
Why you become so liddat? ):
Pull yourself tgt, &let us walk this journey tgt hand in hand as a family. As tough as this journey may be, i believe we'll surive thru it.
Sigh. D:
I need you to know, i love you. So do everyone else in the family.

Trust me, when i say no one understands my situation at times. :\

Mm, oh yeah. My horoscope today is very accurate.
It relate very well to me.
Horoscopes, such a wonderful invention.

Labels: price of growing up

&maybe things will be fine after awhile.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008;

♥ 9/03/2008 04:43:00 PM

Do you believe in love
&the promises that it brings
We'll never fall apart
That's what he said to me>>

I need the sun!

Sentosa's screaming my name out loud every millisecond!
My skin's in a very disgusting gross terrible horrible &every-negative-comment colour now!
My tan's long gone, since like afew millions years ago.
&i'm so gonna hit the beach right after As!
Sarah you fats, read this dammit! Let's pull miss sunshine (elis) &manda along too.
Let's appear healthy(at least).

I feel like going out. ): But i feel the need to stay at home cos ___________________________ too. :\
&to me, the latter seems like a whole lot more important.
Ahh, sorry about today joel! Let's catch a movie &catch up some other day yeah. Haha, before you enter the long awaited NS! Heh.

You're the bomb, jerry. (:
Zomg!

4Bia sounds sooo tempting! ):